zero feeling

Bismillah...

continue to the issues... ok.. rasa marah tu dah hilang... yang tinggal cuma perasaan zero... rasa sangat empty.. mmg xdinafikan y aku rindukan si kawan aku ni untuk bertegah balik .. cuma bila dah hlang rasa marah rasa terkilan pula sikit sikit mula muncul... itulah kerja syaitan untuk mengoda umat dia yang lemah... syaitan ni berjuang untuk kalahkan kita.. aku sangat berdoa pada yang maha esa.. bukakanlah hati dia atau sesiapapun untuk nampak perkara ni..dan pujuk hati aku ni... hihihi... tapi aku sedar diri bahawa aku ini tiada kepentingan kepada sesiapapun... huhuhu... let it be... rindu+marah+terkilan+sedih+gembira... sekurang-kurangnya aku punya perasaan itu... will u miss me? no at least just remember me a little in your prayer... tapi aku rasa tak.. sebab ramai lagi disekelilingya.. ada aku tiada aku tiada kesan...... sebab mungkin dia xpernah sedar yang aku sedang marah.. aku sedang kecewa dengan sikapnya...

like sir catur said;

when you can't cope to other.. u show your sour face... you try to run away.. but i don't know either i can't cope to *** anymore or not.. cause i still believe this is just a misunderstanding and my sensitive feelings during my hormone changes.. everyone through this.. and it's normal..

for nanak... thank you always there for cheer me up.. nanak... i want you know that i thank you really much.. i did not need a time to heal the angry.. because the feeling was really empty.. its just a liittle pain.. for the treatment it's self..  it's fact when people don't see their wrong but see the other wrong... including me..nanak...

for the girl... if you talk back about me, judge me, post all those word in fb or kind of that... i can not stop u.. i cannot stop your thinking about me.. power of mind... i cannot reply all those back.. face me and tell me.. cause i want do that too..

love,

teamoHada