Tell what ever u feel.. yes im scared but im no longer think about what people think about me.. im lying T_T... i keep remembering what i had talk.. is that okay? Was that too much? Or am i rude? But i dont regret.. atleast im saying for a words.. at least i dont keep quiet and let go of what i had feel... yes i never forget an advice from a old teacher.. what ever you want to say, think.. if good then say.. if not then keep it.. yes its true.. but for how long to keep it? People will stay talk.. they will stay think in their way whatever kind word you have said.. if they are bad mouth than its more negative you got.. so then for how long you need to be keep quiet and listen? If they think positively they will find a solution in a positive way..
I know.. im still young.. or still not a right time to talk like that.. but just a thought came.. i know im still young and still spoil by my mom and dad.. and still do not know what will happened ahead..but again i know and dont regret for what i thought and believe for what i believe.. im talking for the better future relationship that we had lost for a many years.. im sorry if the voice was loud.. if its direspectful im sorry.. but if again.. im strongly against and fight for what we should have if those kind of things happen again.. and if u still strongful fight and take an advantage of my mom.. i will fight and like to say..rather than you proudly said about ur children which does not care anything you better keep quiet.. 'louder words than action wont means anything' find a solution.. queitly and do an positive action.. if you still use an old vapon than nothing can change to be better.. as before and now we dont lose anything.. the same like our mom.. she wont lose anything.. but after all i remembered our Rasul wont took us as His people if we dont talk than 3days.. that what most losing we had and.. please do not let things happen again.. lets us together try to be positive..
Im sorry for just now..i fight for what i feel for what i thought in logically for what mom dont know and for what hiding behind the grass.. but then yes.. im still do not know much.. that also might be wrong.. what we need to do.. find a positive solution.. sit all together, recheck each other wrong doing and muhasabah.. there is way in every positive path.. but if still thought of selfishness, egoistic, unfair, dishonest and greed.. then nothing we can do.. in everything in this world.. remembered just like you did and that what will you back..
I know to be a real nice people was hard.. that also was my weakness.. im not easily forgive people.. very hard.. for what they do.. for what they make me feel.. i believe there are so many people like my self and i believe about 'padang masyar' just like i hope for people and Allah to forgive me then.. i pray that i could forget for what i feel.. then there will be a honest forgiveness..
In future ahead.. i might be hv so many wrong to people around me.. i will be loud to fight for what i feel.. then i wont also be easy to be handle.. i could be a haters.. i could be a very nice to a people.. cause i believe for what you give you will get back!
My believe also will mixing in bad situation.. and i could not handle if the negative will surround myself and i give you double bad from what you give! That will cause us a really bad situation..
Because im young and still learning that does not mean i dont know.. just not all the things i know and that cannot took you out a point of my little cent of positivity..
Because you are old and know.. that does not mean alright.. but that also does not mean wrong.. show to a young how you lead with positive solution then you wont see a young with direspectful.. selfishness.. greed.. unfair and dishonest.. end..