Officially im bach graduated last 3 weeks.. and yet im doing nothing at home.. just a month ago helping dearly sister with her confinement at home.. and she's back brought together with her eldest daughter milliy.. i could not count how much i miss this little girl.. our home just so queit.. queit.. no screaming.. no crying.. no laughing.. no singing and drama session.. yess that is more quiet without our mom.. and i could feel dady feeling.. he must feel more lonely than myself.. he lost his wife.. his partner in crime..
It about a week more and a days plus.. i hv to come out and doing something.. i must value myself.. Ya Allah.. and i really want to go out.. and far from home.. just to leaving.. i mean hijra.. but
.. but i could not.. i just dont want to leaving and left dady alone.. no.. and i really mean it..
Allah.. tells me what shall i do.. im getting down.. and im afraid if i could not stand it back like the way must i follow and do.. Allah.. please... help me..