How tough is a child life?

Do you know how tough is a child life? Not only about academic, sports, parents, teachers, siblings but it included their friends.. a child life seem no stressfull but yes.. there is.. especially when they had a friend who is more strong than themselves.. always teasing.. always being strong in their eyes but actually not.. they(kids) who don't know that their action is actually hurting their friend.. then the child would experience a bad memory through out their childhood.. this is sad tragedy for a child lives.. 😭

So what should you do as parents to encourage your child to be kind at school but yet brave and confidence?

So what you can do as teacher who are seeing scene childs who are energetic but yet don't know how to use their speciality right way. And seeing a child who to shy but yet so kind and easily experience bullied act..

Rules. Dicipline. Respect. These are very important stage during early age as a child.

Spread out kindness yet confidence and brave..

Love,
teamoHada

I'm her punching bag

Semalam.. harini pukul 11 pun belun tentu masuk kelas..

S: semua orang suka cikgu
T: jadi kenapa? S xsuka semua orang suka cikgu?
S: nanti semua orang dah xsuka s.
T: kenapa s cemburu ka?
S: .............

S: cikgu bukan baik sangat pun.. pura2! Depan semua orang baiklah.. belakang garang!!
T: jadi s nak cikgu marah s depan semua orang bila buat salah? Jadi s nak cikgu marah kuat2 bagi semua orang dengar?
S: ...... xnak...

Isu xhabis lagi.. masih xpuas hati.. menjerit..

S: s nak hidup bebas. S dah xnak cikgu lagi..
T: okay.. kalau s bagus.. s boleh bersabar.. s akan dapat cikgu yang lagi baik lagi cantik dari cikgu..
S: ........ angguk2 macam faham

And later, masih whine clingy, scream, curse... cikgu dah xlayan.. biaq pi la.. nanti senyap sendiri..

As expect.. In a minute.. tersengih-sengih balik macam xde apa2 berlaku.. lagi hati cikgu ni membengkak.. sekejap mengamuk.. sekejap tersengih2..

And finally cikgu terpaksa juga mengalah.. nanti ignore lebih2 pun bukannya dipujuk hati cikgu.. walaupun mengalah tidak bermaksud cikgu membenarkan tindakan murid. Cikgu lagi garang.. and fortunately later murid mendengar..

Waktu balik. Cikgu saja test xsalam xpeluk xjnji be4 balik macam selalu..

S: menjerit. Cikgu nak salam..
T: cikgu saja buat tak dengar.
S: erghhhh sambil terbalikkan meja
T: sob sob... cikgu pun pergilah kat murid.. s kenapa?
S: mood suara normal.. nak salam.. sambil gerakkan tangan.. muka xde rasa brrsalah menjerit dan terbalikkan meja..

Akhirnya.. murid pun menyalami gurunya... siap nak peluk nak janji2 lagi.. hmm

Awak pernah kena kutuk dengan student? Saya selalu.. i'm her punching bag 😭😭😭

teacher challenge for ADHD

Astagfiruallahalaim.. astagfiruallahalazim..

Al-Latif Al-Latif.. Al-Latif..

seminggu ni.. emosi lagi lagi tidak stabil.. walaupun i did'nt curse loud.. i curse a lot inside the heart.. you will be surprise if those cursing explode all over the floor..

cikgu minta maaf Ain Iman.. cikgu dah cuba nak ikhlaskan hati.. cikgu dah cuba baca dalam hati Al-Latif.. Al-Latif.. tapi akhirnya cikgu kalah.. cikgu balik rumah cikgu hempas semua rasa amarah kat family.. cikgu cerita cikgu xfaham apa masalah Ain Iman.. cikgu xcukup ilmu nak handle Ain mahupun Iman.. benarlah kata Ustaz Ain.. "ilmu manusia ni ibarat lebihan titisan air kat hujung jari(bila celuk dalam laut) jer walaupun seluruh dunia manusia merantau mencari ilmu Akhirnya ilmu tu dijung jari jer, manakala ilmu Allah ni seluas-luas lautan" maaf Ain.. maaf mama Ain Iman.. cikgu Ain Iman xkuat.. cepat betul terhasut dengan syaitan.. cikgu selalu cakap kat Ain Iman " jangan biarkan keturunan nabi Adam kalah dengan syaitan" tapi, cikgu :'( Ain dengan Iman banyak buat cikgu terfikir.. menguji kesabaran.. dan mental..

Ada masa bila Ain ugut cikgu terjun bangunan nak jer cikgu terjun dulu.. Ada masa Ain mengamuk dan dalam keadaan badan dan tangan bergegar menahan marah.. nak jer cikgu jerit dan buat hal yang sama... Ada masa Ain tuduh cikgu ambil barang2 Ain, padahal Ain terlupa nak letak mana.. nak jer cikgu suruh Ain melutut maaf.. Ada masa Ain lari pusing dan ber kali pusing bangunan dan keluar sekolah.. nak jer cikgu biarkan.. Ada masa Ain jerit2 cakap Ain dah makan.. nak jer cikgu tarik tangan ain kasar2 turun pergi kantin.. Ada masa Ain jerit tuduh2 kawan2 Ain.. ain tahu, diorang tu pun sama macam Ain.. ada waktu "bad day"  kadang2 diorang boleh terima  kadang2 bila ain tuduh buat sesuatu yang dioang xbuat diorang nak buat betul2.. Ain.. cikgu faham.. ada masa cikgu nampak kawan2 ain usik2.. tapi Ain perasan x? banyak masa kawan2 ain betul2 berkawan dengan ain.. banyak mengalah dengan ain.. banyak keistimewaan yang ain dapat dan kawan2 ain xdapat.. banyak hal yang ain buat tidak menjadi masalah dan by the time, kawan2 ain buat bakal menjadi masalah besar bagi mereka. Ain nak cikgu senaraikan ke? maaf  Ain.. maaf mama ain iman.. cikgu memang strict pula minggu ni.. but yet cikgu rasa cikgu masih loving teacher..hehehe kalau x, xdela ain sanggup kejar cikgu bila masa cikgu dah habis kan.. mula2 tu cikgu rasa bahagia la.. tapi lama2 cikgu faham Ain ada masalah "separation Anxiety" sepatutnya usia kanak2 macam ain dah xde separation anxiety setiap kali hantar kesekolah.. kalau nak bercerita kisah ain xkan habis sama macamna bila ain dah mula hyperactive.. "you will talk all day long" mood sengih memanjang dan menyanyi.. kadang2 tu melompat dan siap package main kejar2 dengan kawan2. sepertinya masalah sosial xde dalam diri ain.. dan all the time mata ain selalu xdapat fokus bila cikgu mengajar kat depan.. kalau subjek lain yang tidak melibatkan penglihatan.. cikgu yakin ain xde masalah.. tapi bila bab matematik ain xfokus cikgu mmg tegas.. cikgu nak ain fokus..sebab matematik melibatkan jalan kira dan nombor.. cikgu nak ain boleh mandiri.. bergerak sendiri setiap kali transition class..kawal diri dari rasa marah.. dan kawal diri dari pandangan buruk terhadap orang.. juga kawal perbuatan tangan kaki dan lidah.. jadi adakah ketegasan cikgu membuatkan ain tertekan? cikgu xnak beremosi.. cikgu cuba berfikir positif sehabis mungkin.. tapi xselalunya cikgu berjaya..  ada masa ain aggressive.. ain cursing dan lupa ain adalah budak yang cerdas dan bijak..  ain hina orang sekeliling ain.. ain marah dan in  a meantime ain boleh tersengih macam xde apa yang berlaku.. sebetulnya, cikgu xsempat nak brain myself how do i should react? lupakan kesalahan ain dan tersengih balik kat ain? macam tu? jadi apalah gunanya cikgu untuk Ain.. bagi cikgu.. ain perlu tahu.. kesalahan dan kebaikan ain pada diri ain dan pada orang sekeliling ain.. begitu juga sebaliknya.. ain is special to me. really special..

Iman.. a very very long words.. maybe next time..


2.10 in early morning,
tentang impian dan cita-cita..
semoga Allah jadikannya kenyataan..


Love,
teamoHada

Jangan terpedaya

Harini ustaz masuk kelas sudah hampir ke tghri tp bau perfumes still wangi tumo tumo lagi... ha3.. berzikir cikgu hada dlm hati takut terjatuh hati 👧💘👦.. he3.. kalau ustaz y terjatuh hati dulu xpela.. 👦💘👧 ha3..

Kata anak muridku lagi depan ustaz y sama tuu dgn lantangnya lagi 👊👊👊

Cikgu hada tu bukan baik sangat pun.. cuma baik untuk memperdayakan ustaz!!

Pendek dan padat.. jgn terpedaya ya 👦

Hhaihhh... hhhaihhh... aduhai awk ni.. dan i know i should feel i am such lucky to meet a child like you.. out spoken.. and there is nothing to be scared for.. u r really special to me..

Awk la 1st student cikgu
Y kutuk cikgu depan2
Y kata bodoh kat cikgu
Y tolak cikgu
Y tampar cikgu
Y tendang kaki cikgu
Y jerit kat cikgu tanpa rasa takut
Y lari pusing 1 sekolah
Y ugut cikgu terjun bangunan
Y ugut cikgu nak pecahkan cermin
Dan macam2 yang lagi....betapa yang dan sayang nya cikgu kat awk 😗💓

Dan awkla juga.. bila character awk berubah.. u r the sweetest child, kind hearted and most genius among ur friend... how special u are..

Because you special.. cikgu xpernah boleh sambil lewa.. mood awak akan berubah tidak kira bila dan masa..

Love,
teamohada

ADHD traits

Staying close with adhd kids somehow make me think that i might have Adhd traits too..

ADHD traits:
Easily getting angry
Easily whine/cranky
Easily bored
Sensitive to sensory
Wild
Fidget
Starring at nowhere
Anxious
Throw/kick/bite/scream/curse/spit
Low self esteem
Forgetful/losing items
Aggresive/impulsive
Suicide minds/blackmail*need to extra monitor
Hurting themselves and people around
Lack of focussing
Strong will
Brave

Those traits is bring out frustrated,annoyed and exhausted for both parties involved.. however, if you know how to turn those traits into positive way.. you seriously will surprise  how good and skills they are..

So.. i can tell myself i can't endure it anymore. I hate myself evenmore when i have to face all those sick environment.. so yesterday is my 4th day crying after a long long time did'nt cried.. i hate that even more.. but a heart felt more relieved.. my eyes did'nt hold any pain of tears.. 

I just want to rest.. and have a long long long rest..

Love,
teamoHada

Best friend

One day on this weeks, i ask my student to write an essay; MY BESTFRIEND. so i do try to write an essay too. But sadly, the clock run faster than my hands. So i realized, I don't have much friends too. I don't have a best friend.. even if i do, the friend don't think of me as one. So i did'nt wrote anything.

I was thought deeply. what is best friend actually? From childhood to primary to high school to universities to work place. The best friend tittle is always change from time to time. Even if i don't, you do. Even if you don't, i do.

People change. We change from time to time. So those feelings is not going to remain the same. We meet different people. And the different could make us "the bestfriend" closer or even more distant. #whoismybestfriend? #whoisyourbestfriend?

So, those essay would be share next 2 weeks after chinese new year holiday. I wish to wrote an essay about my bestfriend and inspire the kid. I wish the kid appreciate their moments with their friends when they live. Not after the death like i do.

Love,
teamoHada

Tidur dalam kelas

Aku rasa hebat ka dulu..
Aku tidur dalam kelas..
Aku main-main tidak dengar cakap cikgu.
Aku kurang hormat..

Belajar apa kan..
Aku bodoh betul..
Tidak pandai nak hargai..
Atau pembelajaran itu..
Yang sebenarnya membosankan..
Jadi kenapa perkara sama..
Masih berulang-ulang..

Ya Allah berdosanya aku..
Dan aku harus faham..
Kenapa proses pembelajaran dan pemahaman pelajar masih kurang sama..

Kesiannya pada guru-guru..
Lagi kesian pada anak-anak..
Jadi siapa yang bersalah?
Jadi proses yang macamna untuk tarik perhatian anak-anak?

Dan akhirnya.. bagaimana caranya..

Love,
teamoHada

Day 6 | Assembly dan mayat yang masih panas.

Haih.. the most thing i hate during school is assembly.... why? Its waste time and tiring to listen the talk.. but in other situation if something is going to happen during the class later than i wish and hopes that the assembly will be long and long.. heee... such as, did not finish honework.. haha..

Now when i am a teacher.. So again, this is what i don't really like to do.. especially when i is all alone. Auuuu.. too bored... so how can i expect a student to be stay at the same place for the long long time...

Assembly took me to stay and stand out all alone almost 30 minute.. damnnnn....

But anyway.. let me share one story yang telah diceritakan ketika assembly yang boleh menjentikkan hati kita untuk menjadi lebih baik dari hari ini..

Kisahnya, Seorang hamba Allah y berumur 8 tahun.. beliau telah menjadi yatim piatu.. dijaga di pondok sehingga dia dewasa. Bercita2 dlm kehidupan nak jadi imam. Beliau berasal dr kemboja dan datang ke malaysia dan lalu menjadi imam. Ketika menjadi imam lalu beliau mati dalam sujud. Bila beliau mati, dia dibawa kehospital. Keluarga tidak ada. Maka, mayat imam masuk kedalam bilik mayat. Sejuk dan dibekukan. Terpaksa menerima hakikat iitu. Dr sehari sehari sehingga sampai 2 bulan. Ustaz  diberi penghormatan untuk mengambil mayat itu. Bila dibuka laci mayat itu. Dia terkejut bila badan mayat itu disentuh. Badan mayat tersebut panas dan tidak beku.  Kemudian lihat pada dahi.. dahinya berpeluh. Pada saat itu, ustaz mencari siapa kawan baik kepada mayat tersebut. Dan diceritakan dalam hidupnya tidak pernah tinggal sembahyang tasbih.

Semoga didalam hati kita akan terbuka untuk  belajar dan menunaikan solat tasbih..

5th Day|Mentally down

Tidak tahan sabar.. siapa? She or I?

Ya allah what shall i do? What make me angry? What make me felt so depress? Is that because when the cooker call me as her mother or i have to entertain her sister to toilet? Or my period made my mood is swing and swinging.. or maybe because the other kids that just so naughty and she is sensitive when i wish to make joke.. Just that i felt so depress today.. and so much down!!!! Macam nak resign sekarang juga!!

Yes she is clever.. but she cannot even hold her patience😩 that make me felt so tired.. too tired to holding my own anger.. ya allah.. i have no more patience left.. she is hate difficult task which is actually not difficult and easy to her friends. She love and enjoy doing real difficult task while her friend is crawling to get it right. See how good and clever she is in her own way.. and i have to be more clever than that..

To be rational when she is special kid and i have to be special teacher like her..
*mentally down 😭😭😭

Love,
teamoHada

2nd day please bless yourself

Today i know another 4 special child.. oh yeayh.. and friday is my working day.. but Yeayhh just for half day.

One girl with ADHD and AUTISM has been diagnosis since she is 4 years old. And now she is 23 years old.. yes..   i am healthy with perfect physically.. thank you Allah..

This girl still look like a child. Cannot dress by own and still diapers person.. unable to talk clearly.have a normal eye(right) before operation(age4-left eye) but in certain situation on how to handle the child, she is right now only use her left eye). Afraid with meeting people and don't like to far travel.But after all, she is now have made a positive progress with the treatment and therapy.

While another 2 kid have problem in language learning. A bit slow in reading and writing. They also have problem in focussing..

The last one is indian boy. Screaming and her big voice made everyone felt auuuuu... yet i fon't know what is his problem.. he can't talk clearly..

Soooo... please be bless.. bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kau miliki.. especially with your healthy body..

Love,
teamoHada

1st day occupational therapy

Arrive at school around 7.55am.. almost 8.30am only one child.. and later one by one child came... but after all only 5 child in the school.. before 1.38pm,there is only 1 kid left.. omg.. if this is going to happen everyday.. how lucky i am.. ha3..

Around 10am.. i went to OT husm.. so lucky for the first day and got a new knowledge.. as OT is quite different and quite same to early childhood teacher.. the different is there are more details in enhancing kids developments, ability and skills. The same is there is a 'kids with special, unique and different..

So what did i do today is just for observation..and my real job is on this coming Sunday to a special child who is name Ain's. With short brief and information from her dad.. so She is diagnogsis as ADHD and deficiency behaviour. She is interested in Reading.

The real challenge is coming especially when you are working with special kid..

Semoga indah indah sahaja..

Love,
teamoHada

Gaji 900

I am bachelor graduate.. i have debt to ptptn almost 60k thousand with 8k arrears.. can you imagine how poor i am..

With that paid.. i can't even afford to buy my beauty healthy care product.. i can't afford to change new dress or even a shoes.. and most stressful is on how to save when i wish to travel all around the world..

Why the paid is too low while i should have a minimum pay with the standard status i had.. yes.. i understand.. i lack of experience in real job life.. but then.. what about my study? My certificate that i running to get for?

I am tired to think what should i do. What should not i do. I know my aged will growing waste just for thinking.. it was exhausted and painful too..

I wish to be rich.
I wish to be rich.
I hope to be rich.
I hope to be rich.

Rich with money.
Rich with passion.
Rich with kind.
Rich with love.
Rich with dream.
Rich with a positive attitude.

I just really want to be rich...

Love,

teamoHada