For those has been hurt.. hopefully you could get fight again..
I hv once lose some1 in a past.. and later another one and one with quite same situation because i hv high ego that anyone can't deny even myself.. i have been hurt twice.. for not give in and for not forgive.. anyone can judge and names me anything. Once i really felt in so much pain.. ignoring is my bestfriend terrible therapy.. and hating people is the best thing to comfort myself back.. this is sure seriously bad attitude.. but.. these are the only thing i can do to fight and survive for mental balancing with bouncy mood.. yet for now...reading some motivational quotes is the other way too heal the heart.. seriously i did not want to hold anything but i just can't.. trying to forget that much only make the memories stronger.. and that will makes the heart keep hating as well..
Yes. Im not such a good person.. which can easily said...it's okay.. nope.. not anymore.. and never.. im not wise but would never allowed people to using me..
Sorry..u will hear those when i am really sorry.. for one to thousand wrong... i won't repeat and seek for you to forgive me..u won't see my tears...i did'nt hv empathy and even sympthy when you cry infront of me.. im sorry but i don't hv that heart.. if you see me cry.. then that really breaks me.. and that would be even harder to get me back..
So.. that is all in a past.. today i am even harder.. do not talk about sorry or forgive.. when you don't even know your wrong.. do not repeat your sorry when you still do the next time.. because that is all irritating and annoyed me damn much..
I am too far away from to be better person.. difficult road is keep challenge me.. and if that make my heart heal and stronger.. then i won't mind to have it again over time.
Love,
teamohada
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