Have you been hurt by people around you? Sure you do.. so do i.. i have a very complicated personalities when i have been hurt by people around me.. somehow i get them back.. just like a quotes said; what you give you get back.. but somehow i choose to be quiet and silence my dearself.. its feel good for a while.. but when the things happened push too far.. i dont know how to pull it back..
More than that.. i also cant easily forgive people.. worst than that i hardly to ask sorry for my could be (mistake).. whether in the situation i was wrong or the person were wrong.. there are quotes said; memaafkan memberi jalan kepada kebahagiaan.. tanpa mengambil kira siapa yang salah dan siapa yang betul.. and im not this particular person.. who easily said sorry or even ask for the forgiveness.. Am i that nobel? So i dont need to lower my head? But actually it was not like that..
I really want to forget and start a new but its difficult to do so.. everytime i met with end road then its always give me a big stuck in difficulities.. my head.. my brain.. my emotion...my heart.. my action.. my word wont give me a cooperation.. they will split into the pieces and come out with the end unexpected decission..
Allah.. im the worst and i know i should not living like this..
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