Thursday, July 7, 2016

marah tidak hilang benci tidak padam

sesekali perasaan ini mungkin dah rasa okay.. tapi bila perasaan menyampah coming in mind.. again.. i know, you could not afford to forget so to forgive..  i know you have no more heart.. i know you are the hater.. i know you exactly stubborn.. easily get annoyed.. easily get angry.. and i know you have no more peace.. i know you hate yourself even more and how could you forget things easily?? when you did not even can't forgive yourself..

Hari raya yang perlu diraikan.. Ramadhan yang penuh keberkatan dan bulan pengampunan.. tapi kenapa kau tidak punya rasa apa-apa? Ya Allah.. bila kau tidak rasa cinta dan kasih ALLAH.. mungkin sebenarnya kau tidak cukup ikhlas dan redha.. 


when you lost some one you dearly love? and in your mind you want to forget that your dearly has gone.. you can't accept the qada and and qadar.. while you know Allah is real and HE own the power.. a heart has break into puzzle and you could not find a piece that you lost.. you keep coming forth and back.. 

you are trying hard to hide your haters feeling when you have another person you dearly love to care with.. but meanwhile,, the part of your bad side is growing each second.. even you have intention to hurt another people who have no wrong in your situation.. you get annoyed easily with voice, character, same like face and any small mistake that they did all is worst to you.. and you want to spell.. you want to curse them.. how bad is your situation when you can't even control what is right and wrong.. 

not yet... not yet to forget easily.. not yet to forgive easily.. not yet to pretend nothing happens until the person know what is the meaning of loss!! 

kau pergi bawa hati yang hidup..
hati yang mati bersama..
cuma nanti boleh berharap..
secebis hati lain masih hidup 
untuk percaya pada tuhan..


kalau boleh keluar dari rumah.. i know you want too.. kalau boleh tidak jumpa orang i know, you want too.. kalau boleh to stand for your words.. KAU gembira.. it how you want to against and how much you hate yourself right now.. you want to cry so much but look like you could not.. there is no tears.. and i know how hurt inside.. it's really sick inside seriously..  i know how much you want to curse .. so you kept silent.. 

a pretend smile to cover all of your hate feel.. a celebration happened when you still have one and only your love is.. a pure happiness comes when you have an angel heart around..  then why you have to ignore the people still care for you love you for your a haters feelings.. however again,, forth and back.. that so-so feel won't last long.. a missing is there and you still incomplete.. your hate come back and you can't afford to control your feelings.. 

sampai satu saat kau rasa apa itu sakit kehilangan

Love and Hate,

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