Where those puzzle begin.

Hi..

I came to write again.. After many things happen.. I lost into the puzzle.. What do i do in life.. Allahu..

Daddy got into an accident. I will go further in another post..

Now is about myself.. I don't really know where to go.. How far i shall hold myself.. I don't have brave to get out from this comfort.. I am complaining and have been complain by others. I get hurt and i hurt it back.. Now i think my wish came true.. But do i happy? Is that what i want? deep in my heart.. I feel its wrong.. Obviously should never happened.. Im scared of what would be in the end of in the hereafter.. Do i gonna be a long waiting list to the other who like count all my wrong.. To hold me to go to heaven.. Or do i need to wait anyone and stop those people to go there.. Who are they? When its happened? What is that hurt? Which crazy story turn out angry.. All those things really turn out me to be someone else that is not me at outside..

What doa' s is the best for us.. That do not hurt by the people.. That gonna made us stronger.. Invisible.. That won't revenge.. That not hv bad thought.. That really forget.. That really forgive.. That turn out us to be kind.. In heart.. In voice.. In act.. In eyes.. That close all those evil doors.. And opened it all heaven doors..

O' Allah..

Do you still love me?

And i don't either know i deserve to seek for your love..

What will be.. Will be..

tH