Bismillah and Alhamdulillah.
Today I feel more better. Through ups and down my emotion journey is just really tough. I know I need to help myself through the adventure itself.
From home to work to self. It's all turning around 390 degree. Not a day or 2 day. But every second I breathe. Sangat sesak dengupan jantung seperti jatuh dari bangunan yang tinggi dan ditikam menggunakan senjata tajam. Very pain.
I sleep early switch off light early and like to stay in the dark. Light gave me pain. Headache and anxious. And during I sleep I walk. My brain still processing. With one after another dream. And when in the morning. The dream keep disturbing my days. Suffocate.
Ya Allah.
Ya Allah.
Ya Allah.
If I am in pain. Please Allah let be only me. If I'm in hurt with human word please reward me with sabar. And turn me someone better than they and I think of me.
O'Allah guide me with light path. Guide me to my ambition. Guide me to be what I want to be and what I want to have. Help me Allah.
Ya Rahman. Give me your love. Please let me feel your love.. I want your love.
Ya Rahim. Kasihi aku. Jangan sisihkan Aku ya Allah. Jika suatu hari aku hilang dalam kasih sayang manusia itu mungkin lebih baik dari kehilangan rasa kasih dari mu Ya Allah. Tuhanku. Penciptaku.
Jangan tinggalkanku Tuhan
Anxious,
tH
