And celebrate birthday for a niece and nephew is the best thing that i could reminded how special i am throughout all the past years celebration.. never failed to surprise.. even with a small and simple celebration.. always thankful to the Almighty for the breath and lovely family i ever had.. but the sky is not always bright.. a rainbow not always show up.. the rain falling were not alone..
i understand that i cannot expected more when i can't even give more.. i want to trust Allah.. but i kept question why and why.. i want to believe Allah.. but my lies can seen..
Lying to everyone with a brightful smile. Yes im not okay.. im not sick physically but seriously in pain mentally.. which, i thought somehow i need a physciatrist..
When a birthday should be a journey to someone to be more better.. but i did'nt.. nothing to show.. nothing to give.. nothing to share.. living with the same person but more ugly than today.. with mission.. with vission.. all lies..
Yess.. all lies..