You are half of trillion DREAM

Tday was the worst day for me after 2weeks of feeling not good.... 

Dear children...
Am i not good for you... why you hv to be disbehave during my sessions... am i not create a suitable and fun activities to you... am i really bad teacher to you.. am i that ugly so you hate to listen to me.. am i not see your strength.. am i just look at your weakness... am i not fair.. am i not good am i not talented teacher.. or after all am i not aprropriate to be a teacher...

Dear children...
I am trying to give my all to you... i know that i am not talented.. i know that i cant sing well with you but i try the best as i can.. i try to think jeorpadize... i try to plan so interactive funactivity. I try to create so many fun learning through play but after all its make more worst... i try to learn each things.. i tryo to be positive on looking to view ur each talent and ability.. i want to be fair and i give my love to everyoinevwas the same.. or did you think i am bias? I hv been children.. i hv been a student and i hate teachers who unfair so much and i try to not be the one like them.. my friend,ur another teacher asks me.. who is the most child you love.. and you know my answer? I love all.. not more or less.. its true.. its came from my heart.. i love each of you.. but children.. sometime like what had happened today just giving me a feeling of gut.. sigh.. and the worst is want to stop dreaming of to be the best teacher.. i feel want to give up and think of this was wrong and i am not suitable for this kind of job...

Dear children...
To tell you the truth.. i want to cry.. i really want to cry like you are.. but then i know i should not.. i am no longer 6 years old.. and i hv to be strong and tend to be strong... today maybe is the worst but today is the past of the present for me to be more better.. i hope so... and i wish for miracle things...

Dear children...
I want thanks for this infinity moments and learning.. i do teaching of you but i believe that i am teaching my self too and i am learning from you.. i am sorry for each of you.. if this eyes left you alone when you need me.. i am sorry if i hv been harsh on you.. i am sorry if i cannot be the special on you and find a special thing about you.. i am sorry..

Yes.. today i feel tired.. i want to stop go to school and get back of my enjoyful life.. but children trust me... during of my days at school..each every second feeling of tiresome.. every second feeling of i want to be more better teacher to you.. each second that replaced by, there will be the moments of i reallybenjoy with you... i dont want to give up.. you are my dream.. because you are half of my dream.. i love you children..sungguh sungguh..

P/s: dear umar and amar

Umar.. cikgu hada minta maaf if there was a time.. you found me look at you that bad.. but i want you know for what you do was wrong.. i try to undersyand you.. try to talk as lower as i can and look at ur eyes but its nothing effect and you repeated the same doing.. you make me fe afraid and you remind me of Ashraf.. umar..  i love you and i want you know that i wont angry..  for nothing not good.. and i want you be good as what i believe that in future you also want to be good and soleh.. am sorry.. from today.. i will find more of ur strength and hope the thing like today wont happen again.. you  make me scared.. you really me scared..

Amar cikgu hada minta maaf... for not being with you.. and you are crying for the pain.. am sorry.. but amar.. i know that somehow you also like umar.. and i hope this kind of thing make you remember.. i am sorry for your pain..

Amar and Umar.. today you are creating another memories.. not only you but also to me..  i will never forget what happened today.. how naughty you are.. how shock you hv made me.. scissor, ear , Umar and Amar... 

after all.. cikgu hada or teacher hada wont give up.. because you are half of my dreams... keep me believe.. semoga yang indah indah saja...

Love,
teamoHada

Tiring is awesome

Hmm hmm...

Lama pula xupdate.blog.. hihuhihu.. actly i have so many things in head to tell but it was lost when i want to clear up the mind here... huhuhu..

Now i am busy with some kind of projects, journal, RPH, RPS , ABM , worksheets.. everything that i have done in nursery was double during preschool.. its obvious tiring even though my working time is not crazy like nursery.. sometime i feel not enough of time.. rest.. but after all i am enjoying myself with the children.. the tiresome fly away when the children get this hand to kiss and this body to hug and the mouth to say good bye... i feel good then...

Im not expect to much from children.. because i still believe with each child is different and each child hv their own speciality but then.. i just pray that anything i teach them, play with them, read to them will make them acknowledge precious things even though a tinyi for each child.. i dont mind.. i want at least they learn something... insyaallah..

This journey is going to the end.. i pray that i could complete this testing really well.. i pray for a good and pretty things always appear.. Aamiin..

Ya Allah,semoga yang indah indah saja..

Love,

teamoHada