Only If

Its hard to forget u mom.. its hard to not missing u.. your shadow is everywhere in this home.. if only i could turn the time.. if.. 

Im trying to be strong.. im trying to lying myself that im okay.. that im not crying.. that there is no tears anymore.. that im strong enough.. its just a lie.. everything is lies.. my heart is ripped.. its breaks and get together and shreds over again.. if just i could turn the time.. im sorry dear mom.. #48days

Its just.. im sorry.. i promise.. i will be solehah to you and dad.. i will.. and its going to be.. Allah will help me and show me way to better muslimah.. Aamiin..

Ends.I miss you.

Love,
teamoHada

TRAVEL REVIEW|Makkah Madinah: end 2015 vs early 2016

My end of 2015 was a very meaningful and a forgotten journey.. this is the real city of my hope.. infinity love and countless stories to write up about..where, i found the positive aura.. which i could not found in my country and few country i hv visited before..

26 Nov 2015.. 2 weeks before umra..i lost my one and only mom that shattered my heart into a pieces.. but i know after all Allah is great and the greater.. He love my mom and i more.. In facts i never could denied His power..  believe in him.. trust in him.. depends on him.. come back to him..

1.1.2016
Allah grants our family with a new baby born.. a very sweets and cute baby girl came from the heaven bring heaven fragrance to us for kiss, hugs and cuddle..

2.1.2016
In past,so many thing happened  goes up and down .. In future, yet i dont know what will happen.. i pray may Allah wont give up on me.. i pray our Rasul wont give up on me.. in return i pray that i will keep faith in Allah and my believing.. i know its wont be easy and its also wont be so hard..

I end my first 2016 post with a hope  "Hablumminallah Hablumminannas".. 

Love,

teamoHada