LET BE RICH and CONTENT

bismillah.

Tonite, As i planning i am going to start sharing my old project as a practicum teacher at one of  National preschool in Bangi. I had planned about to sharing a project with kids since i was start my first internship. but since time and some other excuses stop me to doing that.

I also will start sharing my last years nursery project to my blog reader (even though nobody read) hehehe.. but its okay, for myself in future reference. IF ...

I wish and hopefully that i keep in my mind to sharing my activity with kids, as now also i keep doing a different activities or apply repetition activities with my ex student to my nephew and niece.

I wish, my passion about children wont stop. i wish i keep learning and sharing so i wont forget what i have done and will do later in my future ahead.  i wish that i can do something different from what i had studied, learned before and apply to my reality life.

This blog is no more expression of feeling only but also a motivation, a variety of activity with kids, a project with kids, about toys therapy, stress relieved, parenting tips, teachers,parents and kids emotion, a tips, trick and treat, and more than that a life story who want and have a big passion to be a rich person in life and living like a rich one. in whatever situation, in gentle heart, with a firm and strong will to be a better person. haha.. berbelit belit bahasanya ..

before end of the journey, lets me share a story that calls as memory.

Love,

teamoHada

2 things student scared

there are two things the students scared the most ..

first - fail
second - cant get A's

i wish to say thanks to everyone who help me during my 1st practical nursery time..

infinity thanks
1. mom and dad
2. siblings
3. niece and nephew

millions thanks
1. my tons of click
2. my senior and kakak2 (k.siha,k.ayuni,k.fatin,k.eda and halah)
3. click and partner cik sukma

special thanks
the nursery children (my 1st batch of student-children-21 toddlers)

a lot of thanks
nursery principle and staffs
supervisor and lecturers

and now.. again.. i scared of two things back -,- ... i hope of every second of good news and good things.. Ya, Allah semoga yang indah indah saja...

Love,

teamoHada

14 february 2016

nursery practicum 1 done

Alhamdulillah.. 

done my 1st hardcover with all kind of precious moments inside.. may I still got and continue to have the blessing from Allah.. #100dayspositivemind#100Daysend#earlychildhoodeducation#toddleractivity#nurseryproject#octopussiblings#

stay tune mama..daddy..mummy..uncle..untie...teachers..brother and sister for looking up my #throwback# 60 activity with my young, adorable, active genius,and lovely #toddlers#.. my 12week activity will be uploading tomorrow... weheeeee...yeehaaa

love,
teamoHada

journey going to the end

Bismillah..

It has been long time that i did not update my internship story.. and this is going to be end.. somehow it is kind of so happy to say.. sometime it is kind of sad to leave.. those children.. i might end up going missing them..

About the trouble that i had.. those are all the experience.. the learning that later will make me more strong than today.. i hope so..

The children.. please help me.. so i can help you.. this another 2weeks left.. i wish to not use my speaker.. i wish that children just listen with a normal voice.. but after all i should more knowledge that they are just todd.. i hope those upcoming day.. i will cheers them.. comfort them more..

May Allah bless from what i am doing..
#Day 84

Love,

teamoHada

Day 31: seriously not fun

Bismillah..

Hmm.. this was my 3rd day that i did not found any joy inside of this heart.. i could not help.. i tried my best ..

I hate this kind of feeling.. i want to spread 100 days positive attitude.. words.. action.. but i could not help.. this kind of thought keep hunting me here.. there and there.. i could not help my own self.. crying now..

Hey.. what is wrong inside of my heart.. why i am just so weak.. why i am just too weak.. i could not do anything.. i could not be someone proud.. no.. i dont mind about the other.. but i would like to make my self proud.. this is the only thing i want.. i just could not help my self..

I feel so much weak when listening to those cruel words.. i feel so much weak that can killed me that time.. and i do feel like want to kick the cruel words to the sky.. yess.. i hate that much..

Today.. i had listened so much crazy and the cruel word.. even those not mentioned to me but i feel that much hurt..much pain.. even i did not have any spirit to do anything.. i doa that time that karma will belong to those people..and what make i hate people only when i heard those kind of words.. those kind of cruel words.. yess even if just for kidding.. i could not afford to be keep cool and calm..

I feel damn sad to the little kid to be called like that.. very rude.. might they not understand but they might know.. hey.. they just so young!! I want to scream out loud! They might hv some misbehaviour but dont called something could break their speciality..

If we are just living from what we hv living before..than nothing can change.. what is all for study and learning... can we just take all the positiveness?..

Today..I did not really want to look down.. just because some of those matter and some more.. i dont really wish.. just take the lesson from what is happening.. just another 2months..please.. help me Allah..  give the joy to me.. so the joy that i had will be spread all to others.. especially to those little kids.. my sunshine.. let me be their wings.. their joy.. their eyes.. their hand.. so i could comfort those feeling that were not alright.. please help me Allah.. keep me believing...

Love,

teamoHada

Day 26: try to be more understand

Bismillah..

Pejam celik pejam celik dah hampir sebulan internship kat tempat ni.. dan tempoh sebulan ni belum cukup buat those children to become close to me.. yes i do.. i try so hard to win their heart but unfortunately.. just few of them.. another 2 month coming.. yet.. no observation from college.. yet.. i still need to be genius in the making of different and new activity with them..

About those boy.. Alhamdullillah he was more better now.. the same goes to the girl..but still there are a day he look moody.. do not want to talk and crying..

Today and yesterday.. i do feel some kind of boring.. i thought the child feel the same.. i did not enjoy my activity that i had create.. i could not see their smile or laugh much happier..  what my expectation to 2 to 3 years old.. but HEY! they are all just a toddlers... kemmon !

Tomorrow planning for my teaching plan.. what kind of activity.. i don't want and don't like repeat the same technique.. the same activity.. i want different.. i want new.. please give me some idea.. that those children will be knowledgeable..fun.. happy..

Good night

Love,

teamoHada

Day 19: first time doing in my life

Bismillah..

Pagi malam pagi malam.. dah 3 minggu aku internship kat sini.. hohoho.. and i had doing things that i had never done before.. kain buruk means y berminyak nampak bintik bintik hitam tu aku sangat geli untuk sentuh..  dah berminyak sikit.. atau dah bertukar color ckit tempat nya adalah tong sampah.. but now.. bukan takat kain buruk.. muntah budak pun aku tadahkan guna tangan aku.. could you imagine this situation.. even for my own niece or nephew.. i never do this before.. makanan yang diorang nak buang dari mulut dorang aku suruh dorang tadahkan guna tangan sendiri.. kalau lantai tempat jatuhnya makanan tu.. aku suruh mereka kutip balik or my other family member yang settlekan.. huhuhu..  but itu adalah masa laluku.. this is what we call survival kot..

kini dalam sejarah.. semalam.. aku lap and 3 orang budak dalam waktu yang berbeza.. owhh loya dan mual anak tekak nii.. yang sorang budak ni dah masuk 3 kali but this time makanan yang dia buang dah jadi muntah.. sebelum ni.. boleh2 dia datang kat aku dan buat muka nak muntahkan makanan yang dia kunyah dalam mulut tu..  hmmm.... geram dan rasa nak jer penyet2 buat nasi ayam penyet.. kalau first time xpe lagi.. ni harini.. ya allah.. budak budak ni.. mengada ngada tahap mintak ice cream..  tu xtermasuk budak yang xreti dan xtahu perasaan geli lagi.. boleh dia lalu dan pijak kat tempat muntah tu.. dah orang kata jangan.. yang jangan tu la naknya.. ya allah dugaan sungguh...

Yang sorang lagi budak masa tengahari masa nap time.. boleh terbatuk2 sampai terkeluar makanan yang dia makan membuak2.. mata dia terlelap lagi.. bukan kemain aku terkejut.. habis tempat tidur..dah tersedar buka mata tu sambung lagi muntah.. ya allah.. dalam sejarah sungguh...

Haa.. ni xtermasuk lagi dengan budak budak yang berhingus.. bukan sorang dua.. tapi kebanyakannya semua budak..dah ada hingus boleh pula lap guna tangan dia.. ok.. tu xpe lagi ni dok jilat hingus tu.. ya allah.. budak budak ni..  memang xcukup tangan sangat3.. tapi, entah-entah aku dulu jadi budak teruk dari ni.. hihi

Haa lagi yang budak2 berak.. ya allah.. sungguh banyak benda yang aku xpernah buat yang jarang2 y nampak xnampak aku buat sebelum ni dan nak xnak aku terpaksa buat buat masa ni.. Survival skill eh?

Xtau la nak cakap apa..  budak2 ni.. betul2 la...xtermasuk yang menangis.. yang bertekak.. semua rasa geram sangat.. betul2 nak penyet jadi ayam penyet..

Hmm.. semoga terbaik untuk kami yang daj jadi ayam penyet -,^

Love,

teamoHada

Day 17:different approaches.. everything is different ..

Bismillah...

Hmm.. for the today.. this was what i feel.. i would like to share my first and three toddlers at my practicum place..

I understand when she is using her tantrum skill.. but i don't know which skill should i use to calm her.. yes she was just a toddler.. and she were just not more than 3 years.. should i shout.. should i use my loud voice.. should i still calm.. should i ask her.. do you need hug? The more i go to her the more i try to calm her.. the more she use all her strength..  she is Sukaynah 3 year old.. cute.. brown  hair.. straight hair.. 

I understand when you cannot sleep.. cant close your eyes when you have a rainy nose.. i even cant close my eyes.. should i force you.. should i use other teacher name that you scared to make you listen to me..should i make a story or sing a lullaby.. you are Rabihah.. 3 year old.. have curly brown hair.. have pretty eyes that anybody see you will fall to love you..

I understand that you love food that much.. i love food too.. no i means.. i crazy about food.. and i understand that you are near to 3 years old and your curiosity just grow bigger.. you walk.. you run to the area that are not allowed you at that time.. what can i do for you.. you are not listened to me.. you are listen only when i said the rewarded was food.. should i use that way to the end of the day for everyday.. that is means.. food must always be with me.. i prevent my self to use loud voice.. shout to you or to your friend was not my choice.. you are Amni.. almost 3 year old.. black hair and love hanging with her brother Ammar..

This is just the beginning... the tough day that you through might be different then me.. i am going to try my best everyday..

I want everyday for you and your friend is happy and happier.. from the morning to the evening.. when you are happy i am also happy.. when you are crying i am also crying....and that is why i need you and your friends to be happy so i could be happy too.. the smile of yours.. the laugh of your just give me a big heart to be more appreciate of what i am doing now..

Love,

teamoHada

Day 16: more to understand the toddler

Bismillah..

Now is 1.50am in the morning means that yesterday was my 3rd week as practicum student and actually i feel so much awesome with those little kids.. and tired.. more exciting..

For the kids name.. i begin to remember all their name and things too but some of still quite hard for me.. yesterday might be my mistake when i changing their drypers who are not belong to them.. but it's still okay after being realize by their other teacher.

For the third week i had learn the each kids attitude.. not all but some of them i know what is their abilities and what they are special with. Why she is cry.. why she is need help.. why they acted like that or those.. and i try my best to be the same to all kids.. to listen their words.. but after all i know i lack many things too compare with many teachers with bigger experience than myself.

The thing i still can't control is they hardly to listen my instruction. Sometime i do feel some of fail..  i try to not use my loud speaker. But after all i know they just a little toddler who are active and they are developing their personalities for their character in the future.

And the things that still not changing from the first day to my third week is.. how difficult for parents to smile or say thank you for a teacher when the teacher open their car door and hold their kids hand or carry them. Sad to this kind of parents. Its not that hard to smile or say thank you.. when you do this kind of things Insyaallah that will bring positive environment to your kids.. the teacher will feel appreciate.. the kid will be happy too in the morning..

Other than that.. i try to adapt with this environment.. i know that my expectation to the placed that i had dream for my practicum before this just so high.. i dream of the great place.. but then.. this is just a place that i get.. i met with this kind of teacher.. this kind of school.. this kind of principle.. yes.. the high expectation different just because there are a different between study and working.. really different.. what you are study you might not see in your working style.. but the knowledge.. the skill that you had learned is needed for yourself..

Okay that all for today.. and for those little boy.. i do feel sad.. i hope that there will be a silver lining for him.. and i promised that i will with him..

Love,

teamoHada

Day 10:Am i smart? Am i wise?

Bismillah

Hmm.. i have many words to say.. to share during my past 6 days.. but yesterday just a really a worse day for me.. i feel so disappointing.. sad.. bad.. sympathy.. and i do cry..

Today there are situation that really break my heart so much.. two different situation and i don't expect this could be happen.. yes i wish to pull him.. i wish to hug him.. i wish that i could make him calm and run from you.. it's break my heart triple when the eyes looked at me for help but i do nothing.. how bad i am..  yes i do angry.. but i won't let my self to do those kind of things.. yes i do poor my little baby doll.. i feel so much sad that i could say i cry when i'm trying to cure her.. i was shock that stop my heart beating.. but i won't let my self to do the things that you did..  now..i miss my little baby doll.. i want hi 5 with her.. say love her.. looked at her pretty eyes..hmm.. the situation..hmm i was just like a mouse.. and yes yes yes i am just afraid of anything and everything in future happen and that is why i keep quiet..  but please do not let the banana fruit two time.. no and never!

But anyway i still do wrong.. if just i'm earlier.. than it won't happen.. if i'm just more aware, this won't happen.. and both of you won't hurt.. it's different way of hurt but still do make me like the worse one.. and if just i care and concern more.. i promise my baby doll.. you will be fine with me..

Yes this situation.. there are a morale.. there are a value that i can learned from that but i'm afraid of myself getting far from my positive mind.. i'm afraid of not being the good one.. i'm afraid if not being more sincere and chooser.. and i'm more afraid in future that i won't practice that what should i practice with...

Help me Allah.. let me be someone with fair and square.. i'm not ask for perfection.. but don't let me use my hand.. my loud voice for no good..  don't let me Allah.. let me be a someone that special for them.. the one that can make them feel fun.. and the one that can make them feel strong.. please Allah.. keep me motivate myself.. to listen them every words.. and they listen myself to every single word i'm saying.. to not be biased and loved each of them in their own abilities.. Allah keep my eyes good for them.. keep my ear good.for them.. and always good for them.. Aamiin.. Insyaallah

Like the one that i adore said.. and i do really have to balance my mind really well.. i have to control my speak loud words.. and also have to improve my action as well..

The smart will talk immediately.. the wise will pause -AA- yes yes yes.. this is what i have did yesterday.. just now feel like a mouse.. afraid for nothing.. am i the smart? Am i the wise? what shall i do for the coming 90 days.. please let the all good one will i make.. please let me see positive environment.. please don't let me give up.. and let me stay believe from everything that i believe.. 

Love,

teamoHada

Day 2: saling berminta maaf dan meminta maaf

Today my second day internship.. today was different from yesterday..

7 am
A senior (Halah) tolong ambil blkng pintu kolej.. lps tu sampai dlm pukul 7.20 kot..

7.30 am
Turun p jemput children.. ambil brng diorang.. turun naik juga tangga.. and ada children y siap nangis dan kena dukung lagi pepagi..huk3

8 am
Then mandikan children.. lps tu ada aktiviti y 100 percent kita orng handle.. ohh.. kita orng xde bt lesson plan pun lagi..

9 am
Children get ready to eat their breakfast. Today they eat fried mee

9.30 am
Start their activity. Singing.. dancing

11 am
Get ready for their lunch

11.30 am to 3pm
Change their pampers.. get their naps..

Okay ada sorang children  ni.. dari pagi sampai pukul 1.45 pm menangis dan perlu didukung.. okay sangat lenguh tangan ni.. xmo dgn teacher lain.. huk2.. tapi bila senyum.. berbaloi la.. skrng dah tido...

Skrngt teringatbko patem.. ya allah.. she's die young.. sad.. allah nak suruh aku beringat.. sebab tu aku rasa perlunya kita berminta maaf dan sentiasa memaafkan..

We never know for how long we live for what a reason we die.. die young or die old.. ya allah.. put her in the best place.. 

Aku habis sampai pukul 6pm

Huhuhu

This baby cry.. this baby smile.. that is what make her adorable and special.. esok2 dah jangan nangis lagi k.. teacher love you.. hik3

Qaireen <3

Love,

teamoHada

Day 1: senyum dan gembira

Alhamdullillah.. today is my first day training.. lot of things that i see.. and its different from what i have learn and study.. yess yes.. that was the reality..

Pukul 7.30
Masuk and terus divide our tugasan.. sorang helping kat dapur and sorang p amik and jemput children masuk school

Pukul 8.00
P masuk jumpa dengan madam.. ada lagi briefing sbb mdm.. the principle xsetuju waktu y ditetapkan oleh supervisor kami which is 9 to 5.. so our timetable nyer 8 to 6.. huk3.. and we divide the children too into group..

Pukul berapa dah xsure..

Tolong bukakan baju.. i means suruh the children make by themself.. mndikan children y belum mandi..then diorang p breakfast.. nasi impit dengan sup..huk3.. then ada la aktiviti.. nyanyi2 lompat2..berlari lari..

Tepat pukul 11 kot not sure..
Diorang p lunch makan nasi dgn telur dan sup pagi tadi..

Pukul 12
Diorang take a nap.. diorang tidur sampai pukul 3 or 3.30..

Oh kejap ada 2 children baru daftar y asyik nangis..

Lebih kurang pukul 1.15
P teman teacher p amik children yang transit.. ohhh

Then dlm pukul 2 to 2.30
Get ready for the children to wake up.. p basuh botol susu and buatkan susu yang baru..

Dlm pukul 3 lebih2
Children bangun. Dan minum petang   makan rainbow cake. After makan bwa mereka semua mandi..oh ada sorang berak.. and.. huhuhu

Pukul 4 la kot
P kat circle area and tengok preschool solat.. bwa semua toddlers tu kesitu..

Pukul 6
Boleh balik..

Okay.. semua todd kena buat sendiri.. teacher kena observe jer..

And i have 2 week observation.. okay boleh dah start slow2 buat lesson plan..huk3..

Yes yes.. i'm happy with them.. the cute and adorable children.. jump like a monkey.. sleep like a snake.. Walk like a turtle.. run like a rabbit.. just so adorable children..

And around 8 pm.. i got a sad new.. my cousin.. my childhood friend too just passed away.. may Allah bless u faten..

love,

teamoHada

100 days positive words

These day.. what is all in my mind just full of negative words.. negative action.. i could not control what is in my minds.. what is my action and attitude.. i could not even control my eyes to cry.. it's just a feeling that is so bad.. yes yes.. i keep telling my self i can do it.. i am alright.. i am okay.. but.. i could not lie myself that actually i am not at all okay..

Just a few hours ago i got a call from a friend.. a very lucky me to have a friend like them.. she give me a spirit.. she is telling me to not be a sad.. she told me that is okay.. and more than that.. she is helping me to heal a little worry inside of this small heart.. yes even though the worry is still flying everywhere but there is people that beside me.. thank you.. thank you for your past help,presents and for your future help.. sorry for trouble you for the past,present and for the coming day...

I believe that i will keep complain to you..you or you.. i will telling you everything that is what i believe is okay to sharing and tell.. and i believe that you might be bored, might be tired to listen, might be exhausted to give opinion or advice.. but still i need you to give me support.. yes i know i should not depend to you people but after all i'm just the human.. and because of that i believe that it's okay for me to not be okay..

Tomorrow is the day that i had waiting for.. i hope for the best.. please let me do the best.. for the 100 days coming.. i pray for the best.. help me Allah.. and within this 100 day. I pray that i can do better.. i pray that i can learn and experience this journey.. yeayh.. i hope so..

Dear kiddies,dear my future students, dear toddlers,dear babies, dear my sweet,cute and adorable children... i promised that i will learn and trying my best to not be angry, to be fun and enjoyable, to be special to you and you are special to me, to understand you, listen you, to be patience and acknowledge everything.. and share with everyone the moments that belong us within 100 day..

Pray for me#100days positive words#100 days to lose 10kg#100days to keep positive#100 days to be fun#let us spread love and positive mind...

Love,
teamoHada