life is call as how you survive

there is a time i feel i dont know where shall i choose.. where shall i take.. what should i strive.. what i live for.. and yet.. i still find me.. what part i have lost during this growing up.. and yet i still need people and depend on people to keep encouraging and supporting even though i know.. i should never keep  rely on people call human.. but after all.. i am just a weak and a weak of human being...

bila malam larut and i cant sleep and keep thinking about future.. dream.. ambition... i am a big girl with a big dream... hohoho... best kan if like that if like those if like this.. ohhh..i cant sleep... i need to sleep so i can stop thinking and berangan........... let me face a real thing.. i dont want dream for nothingg.... ohh Allah.. what is the journey you plan for me.. if i could see.. what would it be? .... T_T

love,
teamoHada

nursery practicum 1 done

Alhamdulillah.. 

done my 1st hardcover with all kind of precious moments inside.. may I still got and continue to have the blessing from Allah.. #100dayspositivemind#100Daysend#earlychildhoodeducation#toddleractivity#nurseryproject#octopussiblings#

stay tune mama..daddy..mummy..uncle..untie...teachers..brother and sister for looking up my #throwback# 60 activity with my young, adorable, active genius,and lovely #toddlers#.. my 12week activity will be uploading tomorrow... weheeeee...yeehaaa

love,
teamoHada

journey going to the end

Bismillah..

It has been long time that i did not update my internship story.. and this is going to be end.. somehow it is kind of so happy to say.. sometime it is kind of sad to leave.. those children.. i might end up going missing them..

About the trouble that i had.. those are all the experience.. the learning that later will make me more strong than today.. i hope so..

The children.. please help me.. so i can help you.. this another 2weeks left.. i wish to not use my speaker.. i wish that children just listen with a normal voice.. but after all i should more knowledge that they are just todd.. i hope those upcoming day.. i will cheers them.. comfort them more..

May Allah bless from what i am doing..
#Day 84

Love,

teamoHada

Day 31: seriously not fun

Bismillah..

Hmm.. this was my 3rd day that i did not found any joy inside of this heart.. i could not help.. i tried my best ..

I hate this kind of feeling.. i want to spread 100 days positive attitude.. words.. action.. but i could not help.. this kind of thought keep hunting me here.. there and there.. i could not help my own self.. crying now..

Hey.. what is wrong inside of my heart.. why i am just so weak.. why i am just too weak.. i could not do anything.. i could not be someone proud.. no.. i dont mind about the other.. but i would like to make my self proud.. this is the only thing i want.. i just could not help my self..

I feel so much weak when listening to those cruel words.. i feel so much weak that can killed me that time.. and i do feel like want to kick the cruel words to the sky.. yess.. i hate that much..

Today.. i had listened so much crazy and the cruel word.. even those not mentioned to me but i feel that much hurt..much pain.. even i did not have any spirit to do anything.. i doa that time that karma will belong to those people..and what make i hate people only when i heard those kind of words.. those kind of cruel words.. yess even if just for kidding.. i could not afford to be keep cool and calm..

I feel damn sad to the little kid to be called like that.. very rude.. might they not understand but they might know.. hey.. they just so young!! I want to scream out loud! They might hv some misbehaviour but dont called something could break their speciality..

If we are just living from what we hv living before..than nothing can change.. what is all for study and learning... can we just take all the positiveness?..

Today..I did not really want to look down.. just because some of those matter and some more.. i dont really wish.. just take the lesson from what is happening.. just another 2months..please.. help me Allah..  give the joy to me.. so the joy that i had will be spread all to others.. especially to those little kids.. my sunshine.. let me be their wings.. their joy.. their eyes.. their hand.. so i could comfort those feeling that were not alright.. please help me Allah.. keep me believing...

Love,

teamoHada