playful student and i am a teacher

#Day1

i still remember the day.. about 10 years ago.. or 15 year? when i was high school.. how playful i am.. everyday i came late to school.. if the clock not showing to 7.30am then i still not in the class.. back 3years i still do the same in college..  and back than of course was more double trouble.. during the second minute left.. my brain.. my heart beating that too fast.. but the day after then i still do the same.. again.. back then i do not feel any bebefits to come early to school.. yes unless i am responsible for clean the class or whatsoever.. when i'm late i try to enter using the canteen door.. and i still remember the canteen bos that i call as Abah who help me during those difficult time.. And now i should try to learn myself again.. alone , i must to be better than yesterday and hoping that each day is the day that i will improving my self.. and tomorrow is the day.. i will call as teacher.. the career that i had never dream on.. and now i have think of getting wake up early morning.. have some exercise and go to school..  this routine is not anymore call as playful student but now i am a teacher..

k.fatin as senior share this doa to me..

"aku keluar utk pergi mendidik dan menuntut ilmu...mohon agr sntiasa dipermudahkn segala urusan.."

Ya Allah izinkan aku dan ajarkan aku untuk belajar dari anak anak syurgaMu.. tenangkan hatiku.. tabahkan semangatku.. jangan biar aku mengalah .. tetapkan hatiku.. ringankan lidahku mataku tanganku telingaku kakiku dan hatiku hanya untuk yang baik baik saja Ya Allah.. Ya Allah jadikan hari hariku adalah hari yang baik dan bermanfaat.. Aamiin Ya Rabb alamin...

love,

teamoHada

2 things student scared

there are two things the students scared the most ..

first - fail
second - cant get A's

i wish to say thanks to everyone who help me during my 1st practical nursery time..

infinity thanks
1. mom and dad
2. siblings
3. niece and nephew

millions thanks
1. my tons of click
2. my senior and kakak2 (k.siha,k.ayuni,k.fatin,k.eda and halah)
3. click and partner cik sukma

special thanks
the nursery children (my 1st batch of student-children-21 toddlers)

a lot of thanks
nursery principle and staffs
supervisor and lecturers

and now.. again.. i scared of two things back -,- ... i hope of every second of good news and good things.. Ya, Allah semoga yang indah indah saja...

Love,

teamoHada

14 february 2016

waking me up Allah

if i could stop the time from moving.. and unfortunately im not born with the speciality... ������ i just love my life now.. waking from sleep..get breakfast for me and baby and yuyu.. and then watching movie.. sleep back.. lunch me baby and yuyu.. watching again.. get food for baby and yuyu.. playing with aaihh or acad if they came.. meal time with some snack and get fight with amalin.. order for dinner.. watching tv.. nothing doing nothing.. just cool and relax.. but then after all i know this life is getting to tough.. ignore and keep relax is someting that should not be anymore.. this brain is too comfortable just like the heart is.. ya allah... the brain and the heart still want to ignore the reality is.. waking up me Allah and keep me survive Allah so i could do anything challenge me infront.. semoga yang indah indah saja... Aamiin..

love,
teamoHada

love..

this days.. i feel so much stress.. im not tired.. i am having fun with little young nephew.. with baby and yuyu..this is just the feeling somelike zero.. o.. empty.. i dont feel yet the love..  i want to love you Allah.. so that i wont afraid in anything.. Allah.. this mind is tiring..this mind is painful.. lots of things to thinks.. lots of things happen but i still is the same.. ya Allah.. i am afraid... afraid to live on.. afraid to die.. afraid of what anything will come to me..

Allah... help me.. save me from anything that make me far from me to you.. i need your guidance.. show me the right path.. do not leave me Allah.. im not yet ready to die.. and im not strong enough to fight to live on.. help me.. guide me so i can be solehah.. i hv so many things to repay their kindness..

(..................)i hv so many things to talk about.....

love,
teamoHada