Schizophrenia---->a beautiful mind

i cant sleep eventhough the time is moving.. now at 2.16 am.. tomorrow got early morning class..again, i'm getting late to sleep.. it is not good for health..for mental development also.. we need a good rest so that our brain can develop well.

schizophrenia is one of sickness that very dangerous to the patient or people around the patient. this sickness my housemate and i talk about this in evening when we are watching "cinta buat emelda". for me, it is was sad to the people when they have to through this sickness. to their family also. one of  my housemate study medical assistant,so she tell a story about the patient that she had through today, the patient is not that well and maybe have some mental problem..but was not schizophrenia. yaa i admit the story was funny but it was a little bit afraid. she also said like that.

from what i heard..the patient is a guy, a very good looking guy..and also have a very good career but at the end '....' hmm.. im sorry to him.. hope that he will be alright back..

then, after we talked about that we talk about the effect and the causes of this sickness.. yaa, we are wonder how this sickness getting close to the patient. seriously i was afraid also..because we never know our next future will be.. nauzubillahiminzalik...semoga dijauhkan segala malapetaka dan musibah..amin..

our talked than continue... we are talked about the law,what will be if we killed people with unexpectedly. this must be sad for the murder because she or he want to defend themself. the act 303 and 304..then we talked about the issue of PTPTN happen nowadays, and at the end no one watching the tv.. hohoho...

so here is a website that will give u more information about schizophenia.. as a person..we have to make know. so that we can prevent something unexpectedly happen..

schizophenia history 

and u can also download or just watching this movie ' a beautiful mind ' this movie is really fantastic and im sure u will never regret to watch ;)

hmm,,till now my eyes still open..huhuhu.. 4days to go then will be my mid semester.. guys who read please pray the best for me yeayh ;)

love:

te amo Hada

menipu bahagia menipu ceria

menipu diri bahagia dan ceria itu tidak bermakna anda semua boleh menguli gulikan nya.. memperguna gunakan nya.. cukuplah dia terseksa dengan perasaanya. janganlah di tambah dengan deraan dan paksaan uji kaji anda..  kadang2 kita xboleh nak faham semua orang jadi tolongla jangan menilai melalui apa yang dilihat ok. hargailah mereka yang memberikan kebahagiaan kepada anda.. dan sentiasa hargailah mereka yang sentiasa berusaha untuk membahagiakan anda walaupun sbnrnya ia tidak memberi apa2 kesan pun buat anda. tp percayalah satu hari anda akan ingat orang y sentiasa membahagiakan anda.

*kalau muka dia asyik sedih jerr--->itulaa muka dia nk bt mcmna kan..cba kita buat dia sentiasa tersenyum dan gelak selalu,mesti dah xder kan muka sedih2 tu.. so guys behave ur self.. behave ur word also ur action.. janganlah sakiti hati anak orang..dan anak orang  tu pula janganlah mudah terasa.. be mature n grow up...

*happiness is belong to each daripada kita semua.. jangan diragut dan digores kelak pasti teraniaya.. jangan teragut dan teraniaya kelas pasti terdalam lukanya.. marilah kita sama sama membanteras kedukaan dan memupuk kebahagian :D

last words from me ;

*walaupun kasih sayang tu uncountable noun tp sy percaya kasih sayang tu sentiasa wujud dlm setiap hati manusia ♥ selamat berkasih sayang semua ♥ ---> anda?

khas untuk kamu kamu semua ;

cukup sudah cukup sudah

worry end ;)

love;

te amo Hada

Edinburgh university

since i watch nona,my mind NOW is always in edinburgh university.. wow wow wow,how fun,how enjoyabale.. n i dont know how to express my feeling.. feeling like really.. really..really to go there.. Amalina che bakri inspired me lot.. dont talk about her another side.. but talk about what she achived.. seriously i admired her. how come she can do it A- level in 5 subject and some students were only can do it 3? and unexpectedly she got 4A's from that.. WOW! that what in my mind.. feeling really really really to go there.. really really really to fly there..

my dream dream dream now is too highest now.. not to become like her.. but to become what i WANT! berkobar kobar jer rasa.. nak meletup!

friends,pray for me.. if i cant go to edinburgh.. then pray for me that someday i can further my study to go fly fly fly to any university in outside of MALAYSIA...and sure,,one of them is UNIVERSITAS NEGERI JAKARTA... that one is already enough :)



google picture edinburgh university;one fine day i'll be there,, insyaallah



this one also can.. hehehe



this is where the place,,insyaallah,,amin...

love;

te amo Hada

crying

semalam 6.4.2012.. i was cried all nite...bgn bgn pun nangis sampailah lebih kurang pukul 6. rasa lapar.. lepas makan baru rasa ok.. alhamdullilah.. sebab dan munasab menangis tu puncanya dr tgk iklan y paling sedih dekat youtube.. lepas satu iklan ke satu iklan y lain.. menagis xhengat dunia..my Roomate lak gelak tgk cite korea..herghh terbalik sudah.. xtaula kenapa.. perasaan sedih dan tangisan tu tak nak berhenti la plak walaupun dah habis tgk iklan iklan tu semua.. bingung @_@... untuk menghilangkan perasaan yang tah apa sebab dan munasabab tu.. i bersihkan bilik---> oh no bersih tmpt ak jer..tmpt orng mna blh sentuh kan? tukar cadar basuh cadar sidai tu lebih kurang pukul 2 ptng keesokan hari.. teruk sangat.. samapi petang keesokan hari terusan menangis..

lepas sidai cadar tu semua..i pergi mandi..hmm jangan kata korang xpernah xmandi selepas tghr.. ni mandi bukan  kali kedua tp kali pertama..dasyat nya penangan iklan iklan tu semua.. XXXX sbnrnya bukan sbb iklan.. ak tau.. air mata bila mana dah lama xkeluar ia akan keluar xhengat dunia dan bila keluar ia sedikit sbyk melegakan... sebab itulah aku biarkan jer ia keluar.. perasaan y huru hara tu still ada dan byk.. ak ingt lepas mandi oklah sikit tp x.. hmm jd ak msk semula dlm bilik air.. ak ambk pemberus,ajax ---> bersih bilik air dan toilet.. lama la jugak ak berus berus berus.. mula mula tu ak guna pembersih y ak beli jenama giant jer..tp perasaan tu xPUAS.. lepas tu ak gna pembersih roomate ak punya AJAX lavendar.. hmm harum sikit.. aku sukakan bau lavender tp nk jimat punya pasal hrtu ak ambl y jenama giant..hasilnya hampeh.. hmm.. pengharum lavendar bilik ak pun dah habis.. selalunya kalau emosi ak xstabil aku cepat cepat hidu bau lavendar dan lepas tu perasaan tu ok balik sbb tu air mata aku xkan keluar dgn mudah2.. hmm..

actly,,byk juga barang2 y dah habis dan going to.. hmm.. bulan ni byk sgt perlu duit..xmsk lg dgn plan aku nak g bercuti lg.. kemain plan nk g situ n g sana..hehehe y pasti plan mesti MENJADI! erk lupa bulan ni sewa pun xbyr lg..nak mkn lg..duit taxi lg.. hmm sbnrnya duit taxi tu xla perlu sgt,, boleh jer jalan kaki tp prepare umbrella before rain la kan..lgpun sikap ak selalu sgt tergopoh gapah diwal pg jd semua nmpk kalut dan xmenyempat.. xmo lewat ke kelas plak.. disitu pun dah aku membazir..hmm.. bab mknn xyah ckplaa.. semua benda aku nak makan.. ikut suka hati ak.. sbb tu la duit ni xpernah boleh kumpul.. mak bapak ak kasi,adik beradik aku kasi..semua licin..  dan lg sedih msa ak balik dr kg hrtu telifon aku hilang dlm bas.. konferm kena curi.. lg la ssh ak lepas ni.. xpe susah ---> "susah susah dahulu senang senang kemudian"

hmm kesian kakak ak..bg kemudahan tuk ak..bg telifon senang tuk aku kol mak bapak aku dekat kg,, xyah risau tarikh expired tak yah risau xde kredit.. tiap2 hari boleh kol..tiap tiap hr boleh msg.. tp aku hilangkan.. dah hampir 2minggu aku xguna telifon ni.. housemates aku kata kawan2 aku kata ---> "klu orng dulu2 xde telifon xde xpelah boleh hidup lg,,tp orng zaman skrng mmg xLAH" mungkin kes ak ni 1:1000 kali..hmm.. kalau lah ada orng nk jual talifon dgn hg 10 aku beli..SUNGGUH tp lebih dr tu xnak.. byk dah tragedi2 malang ak dgn telifon-telifon y pelbagai..mcm2..  rasa macam give up dah nak PAKAI dan GUNA.. ni bukan kali pertama dan ak harap ni kali terakhir.. aku PENAT..sangat.. biarlah orng nk kata apa,, i wont care..

kesimpulanya,,selepas 2minggu berlalu baru aku menangis,,itupun ada sokongan iklan2 itu y btkan ak menangis...kalau x,,rasanya xmenagis ak... kebalnya hatiku Ya Allah.. bila pula airmata ini akan menitik? semoga ia tidak menitik pada yang sia sia... Ya Allah kau jauhilah aku dari sebarang musibah,kau bahagia kanlah aku di dunia dan di akhirat,dan kau berilah peluang kepadaku untuk membalas jasa ibu bapaku,adik beradikku dan mereka yang memerlukan bantuan ku dimasa akan datang Ya ALLAH.. Amin...

love;

te amo Hada

saya akan berusaha untuk bijak dalam menguruskan diri sendiri.. FIGHTING!!